Kesha on her eating disorder: 'When I was very sick...I kept hearing about how much better I was looking'
Even with her new music trapped in a legal limbo, Kesha continues to make her voice heard.
Taking the stage to accept the Trailblazer Award at Billboard's Women in Music Awards in New York Friday, Kesha delivered a teary speech explaining why she continues to speak out about her eating disorder.
"I've realized through a long rollercoaster ride of ups and downs that if I'm lucky enough to have a voice someone will listen to, than I should use it for good, for truth," she said. "And that's why I've recently spoken openly about some of my struggles, including my crippling anxiety and being in recovery from an eating disorder, among many other things. And I know I'm not alone. These are struggles that millions of people around the world deal with on a daily basis."
The singer spoke candidly about how, at the moments that she needed help most, she was hearing positive feedback about her dangerous weight loss. "But the irony is, when I was very, very sick, and getting sicker, I kept hearing about how much better and better I was looking," she said.
"And that is a problem, and I've decided I will be part of their solution. And that's why I've decided to stand confident in my ever-changing body, totally-imperfect body, and try and live up to and practice the self-worth and self-love I preach in my music," she continued.
And, like the rest of us, Kesha acknowledged how she doesn't always wake up feeling flawless. "I never dreamed of winning awards for talking honestly about uncomfortable things — I wanted everyone to like my songs, and think I looked pretty and that my videos were awesome. So it's mind-blowing to be honored like this after the very public year I've had. I feel stuck, I feel sad, and quite frankly, I feel bloated," she joked.